It's that time of the year again: Autumn. Back to school. The days are getting shorter. The temperature cools. The leaves change. And our hearts change too. It's always been my favorite time of year, literally the mark of new beginnings.
One thing I've been aspiring to implement into my creative practice is meditation. It's not anything new. The concept of quiet reflection is in many religious traditions and theologies, and yet we seldom do it due to technology and our busy lifestyles.
I have to admit, I didn't start meditating out of any religious commitment. I see a lot of literature circulating on social media around meditation, but it's mostly for the physical and mental benefits, which I can surely use.
There are so many benefits to meditating, and this post is certainly not the expanse to explain them all. So, I just thought I'd share a little of my thoughts on how it's going for me.
Today, I decided to meditate for only the second time. I am using the Insight Timer app which I highly recommend. Sometimes I just set a timer and meditate to some relaxing sounds. Or, I will choose from one of their amazing guided meditations which have been really transformative for me.
Some immediate things that have happened to me when I meditate:
- I concentrate on my breathing. This is really important. I have recurring back pain and at my last chiropractor visit, I was instructed on how to breathe properly. Turns out, I'm not even breathing right! Meditation makes you more conscious of your breath, even if it's just for a few minutes.
- I realize exactly how much anxiety I'm feeling that day. Good or bad. I'm an anxious person. When I have a creative spark, I cannot rest until it's out, expressed. On my best days, I am a happy, loving artist flowing colors from my magic wands. Today, in meditation I realized just how much I wanted--no, needed--to paint today. Which leads me to my next point...
- I feel the colors that resonate with me the strongest when my eyes are closed. You know how it goes. You're in bed, trying to fall asleep, and then BAM! Hoards of painting possibilities seem to fly through your mind endlessly. I am been trying a mental practice of staying in bed, sleeping yes, but before sleeping, take a mental screenshot if you will of the paintings in my head. In the morning, I can usually remember what I loved the most. Meditation helps me know for sure exactly where I want to go.
- Today, I asked myself, my soul, my spirit, whatever you want to call it: "What do you need today? What do you want to feel? What do you want to love like, eat like, be like, today?" It's a strange concept at first, but really comforting. Just saying to myself, I'm going to fulfill you. You are fulfilled. You are fulfilled.
- You get this cool, hippie vibe of general chilled-outness that I love. I've always been a worry-wart, self-prophesed perfectionist. That was cool and all in college. But I've made leaps and bounds in my self-awareness since then. It feels great to be honest with myself, to relax, to say "You got this," "you're good." I don't have to prove anything to anyone. Taking 10 minutes to meditate each day is like giving life, society, people, the small voices in my head, whatever, a fat hand to the face. A pause. A complete stop, as I take a moment to...well, enjoy this moment.